Good-bye old friend

22 years we have been together....
We have been thru so many things and I always thought you are what made life events easier...
Let's recall some of the 22 years...

1. My parents divorce
2. Moving to another new city - it allowed me to make friends
3. Starting ANOTHER high school
4. Many many many breakups with "the one" or life would have been over
5. Fighting with friends and life was over
6. Stepmother being a bitch - she was/is crazy
7. Moving again
8. Marriage
9. Divorce
10. Work = breaks
11. Moving again
12. Making friends

You were the one constant in my life - yes smoking.
It is no more as I am on the ban wagon as there are more important things in life then smoking and if I can get a little hell yeah and support EVEN BETTER!

Snow wife

Life is not over but just beginning
~me

Passion for what?

Back Story:
So I have decided in the last month or so to change my eating habits just a bit - ok alot. I am now eating fruit as snacks as breakfast and some type of vegetable with lunch and dinner.  This seems obvious to most to do so but not me - I never liked most fruit or veg.  I am older now and realise I need these nutritious things in my daily diet.

So I am telling Prince Charming about meal planning and explaining this new recipe which is part of my eating plan and it is so yummy and our conversation goes like this.

Me: oh honey I went shopping and got this steak and marinating it and yummmm.  Best part it is on my new eating plan

PC: Do I have to be on this diet too?

Me: It's not a diet. You can have rice, potatoes, meat and chips BUT you always have veg or fruit

PC: So I have to eat this way?

Me: Yes darling and we get to try a bunch of new recipes

PC: Well you have that passion for cooking and love trying new cooking adventures

Me: Passion? haha it's not a passion it's a necessity.  Are you going to cook?

PC: Haha I cook anything right out of the freezer and that's cooking!

Me: That's reheating and that's why I do the cooking since frozen food and canned beans are not the healthiest of meals haha

PC: Fair enough you keep your passion and I will keep eating it

Me: It's not a passion and now I will be teaching you to follow basic recipes because I know you can do it ;-)
PC: but you are so good at it I don't want to interrupt you and your cooking (sarcastically)

Me: Nice try mister - game on

Amazing how Prince Charming made it thru years without me and is still fit.  Now its my turn to get fit since we can't afford a chef to cook every night it will be me and in turn Prince Charming learning to cook.  Hey we take turns and I got him cooking enchiladas from beginning to end and it was good!  It takes baby steps. 

snow wife

Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach a man to fish and you feed him for a lifetime.

Chinese Proverb

Mornings and Towels

Do you ever wake up and go what friggin day is it? What did I have to do? Where was I suppose to be?
Crap it's Monday not Friday
Welcome to my head *taking a bow*

I swear, almost everyday I wake up and have to think hard to remember what the day is because lately I feel as if I don't know whether I am coming or going. Let's remember I have a hard time sleeping so that doesn't help because there are days I am sleep deprived. There are nights I am not falling asleep till 330am and waking up at 730am and going all day long *sigh*
It isn't very often but this is why I wake up and think, "Crap what day is it?"

*warning: this will veer off to another small rant*

I do what I believe most human beings to when they wake up...I head to the bathroom and hit the toilet and then wash my hands. As I lean to grab the hand towel I cringe there is toothpaste all over the hand towel.
Ok I am pretty sure I was raised you use water to rinse off your mouth before drying it on the hand towel?
The purpose of the hand towel is to DRY your clean hands...so if there is toothpaste on it, it is no longer clean is it?
I will stand up and admit I am a sheet and towel snob and you will just have to bite your tongue if you don't agree because you won't change my mind.

The hand towels we have are not the crap tea towel or massive bath towels laying over a heater to dry your hands, they are proper hand towels and fluffy.
Towels are so important in a bathroom. As you finish a nice long hot shower you want a fluffy towel to encase you. You want a soft hand towel to dry your hands not scratch them off. You want a wash cloth that doesn't scrape your face off but lathers the soap.
Yes I like towels *nodnod*

So when I wake up thinking what friggin day is it and then I see toothpaste on the hand towel ya know what day it is?
Laundry day! Those poor towels are taking a beating since every single time I see toothpaste I wash them.

Side secret I started having my own hand towel hanging on the back of the bathroom door so I will have my own clean towel, ya know just to save the environment and I wont do so much laundry ;-)

This is why I need my own bathroom, no ifs, ands or butts about it.

snow white

I need a holiday soon!

Proper attire for working out...

Yeah I don't have proper attire for working out...Those are just excuses really aren't they?
All my life I get all high and mighty and need a pair of Nike training pants, a sweat proof shirt and heck even comfy socks oh and maybe a new pair of trainers...
Not any more

I have these things but honestly I can't be bothered to change into it as it just takes time and I don't want too.

So I exercise in my undies I do. I have my PJ's on maybe with a pair of boy shorts and I grab my sports bra and go.

I stand in my living room and sweat with Bob and Jillian and let me tell you they are ruthless! This makes things simple.
1. Wake up grab sports bra wonder downstairs
2. Make coffee - have a cup or two
3. Drink some water go to the toilet
4. Weigh in with Wii Fit
5. Put in Biggest Loser and sweat your ass off!
6. Drink more water

Tada burned 315 calories in 50 minutes and now I can take a shower and do my day. It sucks to have the apple figure and I swear I have fought with it by whole life and Wii is the only thing I actually like doing. I may join the gym for the classes and to mix it up plus I kinda like the treadmill - we will see.

What is my motivation?
If we want to add more dwarfs to our family I want to drop some weight before adding more on - that is what is motivating me - drop a stone (14 lbs).

What motivates you?
What do you do to fit in a workout?
What do you do to make yourself "move" and "sweat" ?
Sometimes it is sooooo boring but moving is grooving so just do it!

Oh how I wish I liked eggs...Meals and food is a whole other subject

snow wife

I love being married. It's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life. ~Rita Rudner

Its for sleeping and sex ONLY!

Yeah I made you read this didn't I?

That is my new motto 80% of the time unless the hubster wants to cuddle and watch a movie in bed one night.

I have been having a horrible time getting to sleep for the past few months. I thought it was stress, anxiety and slight depression due to the upcoming holidays and maybe it was a combination on all of the above. Leading up to the holidays I was on edge and could get snappy quite quick and then try going to bed at 2:30-3am. I was not a happy camper.

Even though I get about 8 hours of sleep since I just get up around 10 nothing was stopping me from feeling very ass draggin all day. I turned a group of wonderful people for some ideas to help and took all advice and made it work for me.
I have bought a Wii fit and doing at least 30 minutes a day but I aim for an hour of exercise which includes yoga and free jogging up and down my stairs. My lifestyle went from moderately active to straight up sedentary all in a year, the down side, my weight shows it - I say enough is enough.

I started a routine around 11:30ish which includes Chelsea Lately and a cup of Decaf tea to help signal it is almost time for bed! They better not take her off TV like they are doing with John Stewart or it will be gossip E!news crap.

So a few changes have been made like I am not watching TV in bed at ALL. When I go to bed even at 1am I don't turn on the TV but thank god I found my sound machine and I can put on some rain to help put me to sleep. My brain just doesn't shut off which is a problem when you want to sleep and you are tired but can't. I am also setting an alarm and forcing myself to get up at 9am even if I don't want too. This might help reset my internal clock source *crossing fingers*.

I am also tracking everything I eat, not so much for a calorie perspective but for the vitamin perspective. I know I am iron deficient and now I realize I don't get enough fiber or potassium in my diet either and I am sure this doesn't help with the draggin ass syndrome. I started taking a multi vitamin as well as Vitamin C & D. I know I should take iron but it is miserable no matter what time of day I take and with or without food it is MISERABLE! My stomach feels like there is an alien in there trying to get out so I will put that last on my list.

Finally I bought a S.A.D lamp because it is dark so early and so gray during the winter months. I have high hopes for this awesome little lamp that sits on my desk.
What is SAD?
SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) is a type of winter depression which affects millions of people every winter between September and April, in particular during December, January and February. SAD is caused by a biochemical imbalance in the hypothalamus due to the shortening of daylight hours and the lack of sunlight in winter.
Symptoms:

• a desire to oversleep and difficulty staying awake, but in some cases, disturbed sleep and early morning wakening;
• feeling fatigue and an inability to carry out normal routine;
• a craving for carbohydrates and sweet foods, usually resulting in weight gain;
• feelings of misery, guilt and loss of self-esteem, sometimes hopelessness and despair, sometimes apathy and loss of feelings;
• an irritability and desire to avoid social contact;
• a tension and inability to tolerate stress;
• a decreased interest in sex and physical contact
• and in some sufferers, extremes of mood and short periods of hypomania (overactivity) in spring and autumn

Now I don't think I have all those symptoms but even just a few and for 50 quid it is worth a shot to get some fake sunlight whilst I work.
I hope this all works and if not then I will just be healthier and fitter and still a night owl ;-)

snow wife
Magic mirror on the wall, who is the fairest one of all?